The first month of 2019 is coming to a close and I wanted to reflect on the start of the new year and compare it to some of my previous January’s and see how far I have come. I also wanted to do this as this is the first time I have stuck to my guns on my new year’s resolutions and I’m incredibly proud of what I have achieved so far.
January marks my blog’s 3 month anniversary, since starting the new year I have noticed such an increase in my readers feedback and even gained over 10 new followers (Hello and welcome), this has made me so incredibly happy. I have never been so proud of anything I have started and you guys really make it feel worth it and are giving me all the confidence in the world to carry on what I am doing! This is something I have loved doing since I first started it so thank you for reading and commenting. When I started this blog I really didn’t think anyone would read it or even care about what I have to talk about so thank you again for reading. I love talking to you guys and hearing what you have to say!
Something I am most proud of this year is that I FINALLY did sign up for the gym and go on a diet! Well not so much diet as I am just eating a bit healthier and still treating myself a lot, but all that aside, this has been a really positive change in my life, a change I have been wanting to make for years but never had the confidence to do it because the thought of people seeing me exercise really terrified me. I was dreading the gym as I haven’t done any form of exercise since year 9 PE and I love cheesy chips more than I may love my first born but so far I have stuck to it and I am already starting to see the benefits! I still don’t have a real gym schedule and routine yet but it is something that I am working on getting sorted in the next few weeks. If anyone has any suggestions or ideas for creating a gym schedule I would love to read them and try them out! I am thinking of writing a blog post on my progress in another month or two so please let me know if that’s something you would like to read about.
This month, for the most part, has just been very relaxing, I handed in all my university assignments and for once don’t feel like I’m drowning, this year I feel confident in what I’m writing and can really see myself getting my degree one day, I have even gone back to thinking about getting my masters one day which is something I was beginning to give up on due to a lack of self-confidence. It has also been spent planning holidays with my best friend and making plans for the best year of our lives! (other the fact that I turn 20 in July and I don’t know who allowed me to be an adult all of a sudden). My friends and I didn’t participate in dry January but we had the best time just sat around talking about everything and nothing together.
Now I know none of this sounds very exciting but this time two years ago I started the new year getting drunk alone in my bedroom, crying over a boy who didn’t even deserve me or my tears (don’t ever do that, it’s a waste of precious energy that could be used for literally anything else.) and on the verge of being kicked out of college. I was on this path of self-destruction with others who were on the same path as me. This time last year I was so badly riddled with anxiety that I was sick every time I left the house, I was failing university and in counselling after antidepressants didn’t work for me, so despite this January may not have been filled with huge adventures but it has been filled with positivity and self-improvement which is something that I could have only wished for in the past. I still have my moments of self-doubt especially with the gym but I am continuing to stay positive and not give up because I have already come such a long way in such a short time. I just hope the rest of my year continues on this path!
How’s the first month of 2019 been for you guys? Would love to hear how you’ve spent the past month, thank you for reading!