I am so sorry about the lack of posts recently, recently I’ve been going through a bit of a slump mentally and with my writing, but I am back! I cannot wait to get back into posting and talking to you guys!
So as most of you know from my previous blog “I can’t wait for summer” Summer is my favourite time of the year and now that it’s officially summer I thought I would talk to you about my plans for summer 2019. I started my summer by getting my nose pierced and dying my hair bright yellow which is the peak of readiness for me.
So this summer I turn 20 which means other than crying over the fact that I’ll be a “real” adult I will be having a party and by party I mean a small group of us are going to sit in and drink gin and cheap wine like the true introverts we are. I spent May going out a lot more which has led to a few questionable decisions like walking home at 6:30 am, rocking up back home at 9 am and drinking a full bottle of wine in the space of an hour and spending the next day with my head in the toilet. I have learnt that the nights out that you don’t plan are the ones that end up being the best ones and the ones where you end up in the worst states! But here’s to many more of these nights and the lack of memories that come with them!
I will also be travelling to Edinburgh and Dunbar to visit my family, whilst there I will be going to enjoy the Edinburgh Festival, this is something I have been doing for years since my family live there, it’s always a really interesting time walking around and checking out the street artists and supporting local businesses, this year I will be going to my first show at the festival which should be amazing! If you ever have the chance to go to the festival you really should as it’s such an amazing experience and Edinburgh is so beautiful. The Edinburgh Dungeons is a personal favourite of mine and something everyone should do as it’s hilarious especially if you take someone who is quite jumpy.
I am also hopefully going to be doing a bit of travelling with my friends, this isn’t something I have ever done before, the last time I went abroad was when I was still in high school which was about 5 years ago so this is something I am 100% looking forward to. Thailand is somewhere that I would absolutely love to go, a lot of my family have lived there and travelled there so I’m hopefully going out there this year! Is there anywhere specific we should look into going to? Would love to hear about your travels and your stories! This summer I am really wanting to step out of my comfort zone and try new things and see new places without worrying.
Apologies again for the late upload, I will be posting regularly again from now on. As always, make this year your best one yet.
Hello again! I’m sorry it’s been a while, I’ve spent the last month editing and polishing up my final university short story, I may post it on the blog if it’s something anyone would be interested in reading. My posts should go back to being regular from this week on.
Today I wanted to talk about the “Women are some kind of magic” series created by author Amanda Lovelace, I first discovered Amanda’s writing on Instagram and after reading a few poems from her first book “The Princess saves herself in this one” about 18 months ago I just knew I had to go and buy it. I now have all three books from the series and they have all caught my heart in totally different ways, they all have many dogeared pages and I find myself constantly going back to them whenever I’m sad and need picking up as well as constantly recommending them to friends.
I wanted to talk about this series as I bought the last book “The mermaid’s voice returns in this one” in the collection yesterday and wasn’t able to put it down, it has quickly become one of my firm favourites. All of Amanda’s books cover a wide range of topics from Feminism to Abuse, every poem is from the heart and it’s made very clear to the reader that Lovelace really cares about these topics and they are things she wants to raise awareness of. What I love about this series is that it is clearly inspiring, it can help people see that they are not alone in their situations and even validate feelings that they don’t realise other people also go through. These books have helped me on my rainiest of days, making me feel better as well as not alone, they are incredibly empowering and I cannot suggest them highly enough to anyone struggling as they are the perfect pick-me-up. Something i really enjoy about Amanda’s writing is how she writes her poems, that they take all shapes and sizes yet it doesn’t take away from the content of the poem if anything this adds to it, making the reader search a little deeper for the meaning. something else that i adore about her writing is that although it’s simple and straight to the point it’s still incredibly powerful which for me personally is how I prefer poetry to be but she has nailed that line completely.
I won’t go into detail or share any of the poems as I feel that you should go check out Amanda on her social media (links below) because I don’t want to take away any of the magic that comes from sitting down and reading them in their entirety. Every single poem was written is designed to help people and that’s exactly what they do and I have the most utmost respect for Amanda for talking about such hard issues such as sexual assault and child abuse as well as including a trigger warning at the start of the books to help her readers, this isn’t something you see in many books.
I have never been one for writing poetry but Amanda has inspired me to give it a go and I think that everyone who has the chance should go and read this series! If you already have please let me know in the comments below what you thought and share your favourite poems or poets! I would love to talk with you about them and read any of your suggestions.
Thank you for reading and as always, I hope this year is your year!
My apologies for being a week late with this post, I have just been swamped with uni work and a very impromptu decorating project. Before I start on my post I would like to say thank you to all for 100 likes on my blog, those small victories honestly make my day and give me all the motivation I need to continue with my tiny blog! So thank you!
So, what’s happened in the last few weeks, well, I finished therapy. 10 weeks ago I started CBT therapy to help me with my anxiety, now I am going to make an entire blog post dedicated to this but for now, let me just say; it is completely worth it. I feel the calmest I have felt in years, I feel like I can actually handle situations in a rational way and get through my days quicker because I’m not spending so much time in my own head stressing myself out. I will be writing a full post on this and what the individual’s sessions were like for me!
I started decorating my room! This is such a huge deal for anyone that knows me. My room had 2 black walls and 2 blue walls, the black was because my lil emo heart thought it would be so cool (it wasn’t) and the blue walls were due to me never actually buying white paint because I am the queen of procrastination. My twin and I have spent the last week stripping all the wallpaper in preparation. Something I learnt about myself during this is that I may be a slight hoarder, here are a few things I found under my bed whilst cleaning;
- A 5-year-old empty bottle of Malibu rum from when my friend and I were drinking in my bedroom and I was too scared to move the bottle and just forgot.
- School work from high school (I left in 2015).
- A permission slip from high school that I never handed in, again I left 4 years ago.
- An ex-boyfriend’s hoodie. I’ve not spoken to him for 6 years.
So yeah, I have a slight problem. Or I just need to start being more organised. I also have a mural on my wall from the previous owners which is supposed to be nursery rhymes but honestly, it looks like the souls of their enemies are trapped within. I have inserted a picture of the creepy wall because everyone needs to see it, people have very mixed feelings on the wall so please let know what you think!
I have finished all my university work bar one project and I am so proud of this because last year I was in such a tough place that it honestly felt impossible, this has helped me see how much I’ve grown because sometimes I forget and get mad thinking that nothing has changed! So here’s to hoping I got it this time around. I love the university and the course I am doing but it is such a weight off my shoulders to be at this point! This month has been my most productive one so far and I really hope the rest of my year is this way because I feel like I am really getting places!
How has your month been? Let me know in the comments, I love talking to you all and hearing about what’s going on with you. Thank you for reading and as always, I hope this year is your year!
Right, I get that we are barely into spring but after getting a sunburn in February (yay global warming) it got me really excited for summer, it is my absolute favourite time of the year. Now, don’t get me wrong I get the hype about the colder seasons, cuddled up in your best, fluffiest blanket, drinking tea and watching that one movie for the millionth time B U T I love summer because I do the exact opposite of that, I am a huge homebody, I am extremely introverted but the minute that the sun’s out I want to live outside and have the best time and I don’t even think about anything but how I am going to spend those months.
When I was in my early teens I hung out with a large group of people and we used to spend every waking moment of summer outside and honestly it was one of my favourite times, I had more freedom and learnt how fun it could be. But the summer I adored was in 2017, Molly and I must have spent every day going out for lunch and drinks and just talking the days away and that might sound so simple but imagine spending every day with your best friend in the whole world not having a care in the world? Also seeing my nephew every day and having water fights whilst we sat waiting on his baby sister to arrive. I know I know it sounds so cheesy but summer makes me feel like I’m in some dumb teen movie and I hope I never lose that feeling.
This summer I will be turning 20 (honestly I’m not ready) and I intend on living it to the full with the people I love. 2019 is going to be my year and summer will be no different! There is just something about summer. The best part of summer for me is the improvement in my mental health, honestly, as soon as the sun comes out so does all my lost serotonin which always makes me so grateful for the time of the year. This time of year improves my mood so much, even writing this post I have the biggest smile because I am so ready for these new memories and starting the new chapter of my life that will be my 20s.
Does anyone else have really intense feelings for a time of year or is it just me? Let me know your favourite time of the year and why in the comments. I love reading what you guys have to say! As always guys, make this year YOUR year!