My October 2018

The month of October is my favourite for a lot of reasons, the main ones being that it is the spookiest time and the fact that black forest hot chocolates make a comeback (that hot chocolate is possibly one of my favourite things, despite my lactose intolerance saying otherwise). So I thought I would take a look at the last month and talk about what I did and if I learnt anything.

This October I started this blog and it was a long time coming. I kept going on and on about it for months but nothing ever came of it for a million different reasons, the main one being that I completely lacked confidence in my writing. I have to say this blog  is the exact opposite of what I had imagined, for example I wanted an Insta-blog filled with pictures of books and professional reviews, I never thought I would have a WordPress blog where I just talk about me and my unedited feelings and I am so much happier with how that has turned out. The reason I changed my mind was that I realized my heart wouldn’t be in what I was writing, it would have felt like an assignment, something I had to do instead of something I was truly passionate about that had my full attention and feelings invested into it. I have my heart set on this blog and making something of it, even if only 3 people read it I really hope those 3 people enjoy what I write and believe in me as much as I believe in myself.

In addition to the blog writing I was also offered an opportunity to write an article for my university which they published, article writing is another writing medium that I hadn’t ever explored or even thought about and again I am so glad i took the chance and did it because it has given me so much more confidence in my writing ability. So the main theme for my month for taking the leap and exploring new opportunities that are coming my way instead of shying away from them due to my own self doubt, so I have promised myself that every time I doubt myself to look back at this month and remember that I can always do it, even if it doesn’t work out I can still try and learn lessons from it.

I wrapped up the month by spending Halloween dancing and drinking with my best friends, I don’t think I’ve drank that much vodka in years but honestly the nights that you can barely remember make for some of the best memories. It’s the second year in a row I’ve been dancing to thriller at 3am and I honestly wouldn’t change it for the world! I’ve already started planning my costume for next year and it’s less basic than being a black cat and a devil! So here’s to another amazing month, I can’t wait to see what November brings.

 

My favourite books

I have been reading non-stop ever since I’ve had the ability to do so, I absolutely adore that feeling of getting lost in a book to the point where putting it down felt like leaving a movie halfway through and missing the best parts. So I thought I would share some of my favourites with you.

Over the years I have read so many different books with different genres, when I was in primary school I read every single Jacqueline Wilson book I could, including her autobiography. I would read them in a few hours and then spend the rest of the day telling my poor dad in painstaking detail about the plot, the characters and every single detail of the book. The Hetty Feather series was by far my favourite, I reread those books more times than I can count, I took them everywhere with me and told my whole family about them as they sat and nodded along politely. I spent my whole childhood with my head in a book and used to love doing reading comprehension at school because of this and would be proud as punch every time I went up a reading level or my reading age went up.

Through my teen years, I have read many different books but I mainly found myself reading contemporary poetry, such as;

1.Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur

2.The sun and her flowers by Rupi Kaur

3.What I’ve been feeling lately by Alicia Cook

4.The Chaos of longing by K.Y Robinson

All of these books spoke to me in very different ways and I adored them all, they helped me realise what I was feeling was normal and ok sometimes and when I’m going through rough times I think about many poems from these books. I cannot recommend them enough so if you have the chance to read them please do. You will not regret it.

I have found my favourite book of all time and it is without a doubt ‘Watching Edie’ by Camilla Way. I picked up this book after seeing it in Waterstones and thinking “oh this sounds decent” and I cannot tell you how quickly I fell in love with this book. I do not have a bad word to say about it, it’s the best journey I have been on. When reading this book you spend the whole time switching your loyalty between the two main protagonists wondering what’s going to happen next and if you will ever find out what happened “that day”. As soon as I finished this book I told everyone I knew to go out and buy it as it was the best book I had read in a very long time, I have also read the rest of Camilla’s books and in my opinion they all hold up to the same standard of Watching Edie. Watching Edie also came a source of inspiration in my own writing as I loved seeing the different perspective’s of the characters throughout the story as it added to the conflict of who the real victim was.

I hope you’ve enjoyed this post and it gives you some inspiration for your next read!

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Adult bucket list

I have no idea what to write about.

At all.

It has a been a week of stress and downfalls and a million pointless phone calls that leave you with more to do that when you started. I’ve spent this week planning my future. I’ve very quickly come to realize that you can’t plan the future all you can do is set goals and do your very best to achieve them, I thought I would share my future goals with you;

1.Finish University

2.Get a master’s degree in creative writing

3.Take a gap year and travel and live a nice little cliche life

4.Get a job doing what I love and doing that forever

These four goals are my very grown up, practical goals, an adult life bucket list if you will.

Every person has their own idea of a perfect life but just can’t plan that, as amazing as it would be to have everything go the way you have envisaged maybe it turns out that that’s not how your life will end up. It might turn out that university isn’t your thing or your dream job turns out to be not as dreamy as you thought it would be, it may not sound like it but these realizations give you the chance to start over and discover new goals and ambitions. Something I have come to realize is that you don’t necessarily have to be good at something to love doing it, for example, I failed A-level English and I am now studying English with creative writing at university because I am so passionate about the subject. As long as you have the passion you can do anything, I have met so many people who are studying or working in sectors because they are good at it but  none of them seem to actually enjoy what they are doing and personally I cannot imagine anything worse. Almost everyone I know wants to go into the arts in one form or another and not one of us are prepared to give up our dream, to live our lives as a back-up plan, we are all prepared for the competition and hardships of our sectors but we aren’t giving up because we know that there’s nothing in this world we want more and I think more people should live by this mentality.

 

Why I have started a blog

My name is Lucy and I have wanted to be a writer since I could read, I started writing plays when I was in primary school about anything and everything I could think of, I kept on writing through high school but that was mainly my angst-filled teenaged thoughts and now at 19 I am studying English Literature with Creative writing and have never been happier. Since starting the course I have become obsessed with making my mark in the industry so I thought what better way to do that than starting a blog? So that’s what I’m doing. So welcome to my blog.

In all honesty, I’m not 100% sure on what this blog will consist of, all I know is that taking this leap is the best thing I can do and I have zero plans on regretting it or going back on it. Let me tell you more about my journey into writing; as I said above I have wanted to do this since I could write but in all honesty I am very mediocre at this, I even failed A-level English and that affected my confidence to the point I gave up on my dream and went onto my backup plan. Teaching. I started an apprenticeship at a nursery which I didn’t hate but I spent my entire 6 weeks their feeling like I was missing out, I constantly sat there thinking, “this isn’t what I want to do with my life” so I quit, in all honesty, all they did was teach me how to be an underpaid cleaner more than they did anything else. I then spent the next 6 weeks with my friends not really thinking about what I was going to do next. Towards the end of summer I decided to start looking at university courses and I immediately fell in love with course I am currently studying, the modules stood out to me and just the thought of doing it and studying what I loved made me so happy that I applied through clearing about a month before I was supposed to start (with some help from my friends who constantly checked my personal statement to make sure I got to pursue my dream) and I have never regretted acting on that impulse and I know I won’t regret acting on this one.